I STILL LOVE YOU

Late in the night with all my passion and might I stepped out. Setting out on a journey to that part of downtown where the lights were red and mixed just like the wine, music loud and trade of stolen goods went on. I don’t have to be here. I have had many previous visits to the red lights district. It’s demeaning for someone my dignity to be found here at this ungodly hour. But I cannot forgo my mission here.I know my life is at risk but I have to pursue my soiled gem once again.

Finding my way through the stalls that housed the goods, I seriously hated the scenery but everyone seems to be catching some sort of fun. Three men with hot eyes and built muscles stared at me. I moved up the building to the part with sticky floors, and almost no light. I finally got to cubicle number 8. Behind the door were men waiting to have a buy. Their intention to buy the good I loved and owned was more than an arrow shot through my spine to ribs and hearts. The man in me rose but the hurt within was killing.  I could fight if they had started one.

With no thought of the consequences I crashed open cubicle 8 and there she was as usual. The night has been bad but this is my worst. On a bed as small as my maid’s, by another man half-dressed laid my wife – the one I love. Her lip makeup was wiped leaving patches of makeover. Her lips still dripped from the lips of the dude she just kissed. She managed a tipsy step off the bed. She betrayed my love. Before I could bid her come, she said sorry just like always. She looked unkempt, was scared, felt ashamed, unworthy and knew she was caught once again. She asked me to give up on her cos she was just not worth the love bestowed on her. I looked in her eyes, reached out to her hand though she smelled foul from cheating on me and said, “I still love you”.

She resisted following me out because of the shame but I held on and dragged her along. She kept saying sorry. But as I turned again to see her face reaffirm my love, she had her other hand around that strange man. 

I almost froze. Isn’t it crazy she couldn’t stop cheating on me even when I’m with her? Isn’t it insane she could repeat her sorry and her cheating concurrently?  Isn’t it crazy I forgave her all these and yet she could not for a moment give me back some love? Yes, it is! But isn’t that how we treat our God?

I cannot speak for you, but I know I lie, say sorry and lie again. I know how much I seek forgiveness for the same thing not because I doubt he forgave when I asked, but because I repeated it after He forgave. He calls for a relationship but my wicked heart feels for the world and fails to follow his leading. What is more contradictory than the fact that Jesus comes searching for us in room 8 because we are the prostitutes in there.

Stop hurting Him and be faithful. Don’t be a “Gommer”. Let us step out of the brothel mess, leave behind the mattress of unfaithfulness. Let us by faith hold on to God’s hand, let go of the grip on the sin that calls us to cheat on Him and walk with Him as He leads us home away from room 8.

 

TRUTH IS EXCLUSIVE

Truth by itself is exclusive. Tolerance is a great virtue but cannot be upheld if it would cloud truth.

The world of today seeks to be more open, accommodating and ‘overly tolerant’ in all respects. There is a plea to welcome every view, consider them and be open-minded to what views others hold. But it must be said, “You do not want to be so open-minded that your brains fall out”. We seek to accommodate lies even though we need no further education to detect and write them off as lies.

First off, if you chose to accept a worldview and its doctrines, you are simply saying that, the truth of that worldview renders the other ones void and untrue. If all views are deemed right, I am tempted to say none is right. Standing by truth is standing against lies. When you make such stances for what you believe is right, you’d certainly be in conflict with others.

There must be some form of conflict once we live in a world with varying worldviews. Of course God and mammon cannot assume the same status since, ‘no man can serve two masters: for either he will hate the one, and love the other; or else he will hold to the one, and despise the other’. Since God did not provide room for the Israelites to fear Him, and serve their own gods, according to the culture of the nations that were driven from the lands they inhabited, there is the need to say no to certain things if we would genuinely hold unto truth.

We must be hypocrites which we cannot be, if we claim or seek to have no conflict with anyone in relation to our belief in the Christian God. When in conflicts with others as a result of truth, onlookers who probably do not share in the truth look on and expect you to hold on to truth. Living peaceably with all should be the goal and we must all seek it but truth must not be buried.

When in conflict because of truth, hold on to truth because, God would be with you through it all. Indeed, peace is absent where truth is wanting. Many have made efforts to pursue peace and such efforts leaving truth behind and facts have it that such exploits end up as nothing more than sheer wild goose chases.

A worldview that begins to compromise on what it holds to be true in order to be an all-inclusive group stands for nothing and is likely to grow as fast as a mushroom and die out when the sun begins to test its strength. It would have nothing to live for. Now, I am not only pursuing a unique exclusive truth and belief just for the sake of it but that is what it ought to be if it is going to be real.

We are all not the same because I hold certain unique views, beliefs and practices that others who may even bear the same ‘name’ as me do not. I cannot pretend we’re altogether right, since that would be a lie and I cannot tell a lie to make your lie seem right. If you would check and accept my truth which is good for us all, then nothing can stop us from having a  lasting peaceful living.

I cannot say we are the same when your view of what the bible says is true is skewed. These are some of the reasons why the doctrine of ecumenism doesn’t seem to hold much water even at its conception; that is if it holds any at all. It only gives false hope to a lump sum deceived and welcomed into the fold without proper education and scrutiny of what they hold as truth. The untoward behaviors which were accepted in out of what I call false love, permeate the systems that allowed it, grow and eventually crowd out the little truth that failed to stay its grounds and be exclusive in its outreach for more numbers.